yet most times I cannot sleep
at least
not well
accutely aware that I'm waiting
letting time pass over
and through me
making what's solid seem
wavery
like the water in a deep loch
a little
out of touch
pacing my own island
where I've learned not to test the limits
there is only so much in reserve
and yet
I'm doing fine
letting the rain as mist cover my skin
sometimes
it is dry
and the dust settles
over my counting eyes
just waiting
and this is my own wish
to be right here
and I know that I will miss this place
harbour it away
as another life of mine
so alien and secret
even with the pain
and I know
soon
nothing will be the same again
and let me tell you silent reader
nothing that I've ever done
has ever been so strong
than to sit here all alone
waiting......
waiting...
waiting...





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"Beauty and the Devil are the same thing."
Robert Mapplethorpe
and thanks for all the great pics of my wife!...
when I have extra time I'll comment on some of them..
I don't know much about photography but I'll try to make them productive
--
and what of the silence surreal?
the circle falls
clinking upon that broken glass
today was the dream
tomorrow brings the dust
soft song
of those wastrel minstrels
now I close my eyes
an echo
for all the world to see....
--
"Beauty and the Devil are the same thing."
Robert Mapplethorpe
hollow has a nice ring to it too..
but alas I feel not for myself
having some experience with cold distances long past
but for her
being new to these kinds of situations..
I've actualy been far more productive than before.
exercising, cleaning and organizing..I can live simply
on my own..saving and waiting..
making myself a better man upon her return...
yes, I agree...she's a wonderful model...a wonderful woman to know.
and you're welcome!
--
and what of the silence surreal?
the circle falls
clinking upon that broken glass
today was the dream
tomorrow brings the dust
soft song
of those wastrel minstrels
now I close my eyes
an echo
for all the world to see....
--
"Beauty and the Devil are the same thing."
Robert Mapplethorpe
--
"Beauty and the Devil are the same thing."
Robert Mapplethorpe
--
Just you try to steer me away, I'll drive you mad
thanks for the new account update
I don't go online much anymore
but now that Cydney's in Troutdale I'll probably will be on alot more
hope you're doing ok
and it was great seeing you at the party
catchya later!
--
and what of the silence surreal?
the circle falls
clinking upon that broken glass
today was the dream
tomorrow brings the dust
soft song
of those wastrel minstrels
now I close my eyes
an echo
for all the world to see....
I'm not able to go online as much as I'd like, either. But, all's well. I'm glad to hear from you again. How have you been?
Likewise about the party. I had fun. It was great to see everyone. And you kicked my ass at Mario kart, that was epic fun
Hope to hear from ya again soon! Take care!
--
Just you try to steer me away, I'll drive you mad
online alot more
I'm not too much antisocial I don't think
I just like to keep things simple..
that Mario Kart game was something else
all I was thinking was "just keep the lil dude on the track"
not used to the whole disattached steering wheel phenomenon..
I was soooo glad when you came over
the only sober friend there
took alot of pressure off of me
Cydney kept saying that "we" were the sober ones
hah!...if she only knew at the time
I was just trying to keep somewhat rational and on top of things
so everyone else could have a good time and I could deal with
any less than fun business that might have occured...
again...sorry to hear about how overbearing your dad is
at least you got a new start
you're a damn cool person and I'm very happy to know you..
as for me..
I miss Cydney more than I could ever write
life is dull and meaningless without her
but there are the dreams...someday..
they'll come true...that's what it's all about..
see you around my friend!
--
and what of the silence surreal?
the circle falls
clinking upon that broken glass
today was the dream
tomorrow brings the dust
soft song
of those wastrel minstrels
now I close my eyes
an echo
for all the world to see....
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